Discouragement!

Good morning, Papa God! 

My heart feels numb! My determination and my drive are all but gone! I am feeling very discouraged which is always the beginning of my 5D slide (discouragement, discontent, despair, defeat, and depression). I am struggling this morning to get off the slide before I slide further down it. I know praising and thanking You is the remedy for me that always works, but my heart is so numb that I am finding this hard to do. Help me, My God, to climb off this slide. The tears are beginning to burn behind my eyes, but I am refusing to let them flow. I feel so hardened inside, so beat up by life, that I just want to give up and come home. Maybe a good cleansing cry is what I need to do. Oh, I certainly know that it won’t change anything, but I may “feel” better … maybe. I cry by day, but You do not answer, and by night, but I have no rest. Yet, Papa God, You are holy, and You are on Your throne. Yet will I praise You and trust You. I know You will answer me regarding these struggles within my soul -- Your purpose for me in these days, Your timing of answers, Your provision. I have committed myself to You, and I know and believe that You will deliver me from all that troubles my mind and soul. I know You hear the cries of my heart. Be not far from me, Papa God, in this time of searching. Show me the way in which I should go!

My discouraged little one,

Do not lose heart! Come here! Let Me lift you up in My arms and hold you, carry you for a while. I am right here, always with you, just as I promised I would be. I know these past few years have proven to be very difficult for you. You have had your “normal” turned upside down; you have had to let go of a lot of what gave your life meaning. I know because I asked you to do it … for your sake. This change and letting go has, seemingly, led you to more isolation and loneliness than you can handle. But you did and are handling it through My strength and for My purpose. Now, I will show you the way back to the type of walk with Me I desire for you. I know you felt comfortable in your normal of “Mach 9, hair-on-fire, 100 things to-do list.” But, it was a destructive lifestyle for you. It left you with no time to deal with the things that needed to be dealt with and healed. So, I chose to save you from yourself in this matter by creating a change to your “normal.” But, this change did not mean that I want you to sit down and do nothing for the rest of your days. Choose ways to remove the isolation, but in a calmer and more contented lifestyle. So, sit here with Me and let Me hold you while your tears flow. I am catching them all. I know all about your hurt, your pain, your frustrations with life. It’s all going to be okay. I got this! I am holding you, now and forever. Your heart is full of love and commitment to Me, and your heart belongs to Me. You can follow your heart only when you have focused it upon Me. I am your Papa God, and I love you. Listen to My voice above all others, especially your own. By My Spirit, I will lead in all you do.

(Psa.22:2,8; Psa.34:4; 1 Cor.10:13)