Patience!

Good Morning, Papa God! 

Why is it that on some days I feel like I want to write and on other days, not so much! Today I am more like … not so much! I think it has a lot to do with being placed on the shelf, waiting patiently – well, maybe just waiting! I am not so sure I am doing it all that patiently. Patience is one of those virtues that is developed through trials. So, I will say this, Papa God. I am more patient now than I was five years ago when this waiting began and the shelf-sitting started! You wait patiently all the time for me to “get it” and to grow. You are perfect patience as You wait for me to navigate this period of inactivity with my frustrations and anger at the circumstances in which I find myself. Forgive me, Papa God, for my impatience and help me cooperate with You more in this growing process. I am certainly not very patient yet, but better than I was! I am learning that when You bring a time of waiting and You seem unresponsive to my request to give me something to do, I am to just wait and not fill that time with busyness. I am learning to not run ahead of You before You give me direction. If there is the slightest doubt, then I know You are not guiding me to do it. So, I wait whenever there is doubt. I am learning not to act on the impulse of feelings. My feelings about situations or timing are rarely correct.

One thing, Papa God …

This new year is before and I do not have any dreams or goals, no bold endeavors to do in Your name. I want to do Your dreams and goals and bold endeavors. I know that this year will be conquered, day-by-day, moment-by-moment. I am waiting for You to show me the direction that my steps should take. But while I wait for You, please don’t let me miss what You have for me to do each day.

My child,

When you are afraid for whatever reason, trust Me! I have not given you the direction in which you should go … yet! But I will. When I do, go in the direction I lay out for you. Go without knowing the details of My plan for you. Go, trusting Me! But, for now, the timing is not right for you “to go” in any direction. I know this is hard for you. You are still learning to be still while I teach you. Don’t try to force open a closed door. I will set before you an open door which no one can shut when the timing is right. Forcing your way through a closed door always ends badly. You will see many doors in your lifetime, but they are not always the ones through which you should go as you well know. I will open the doors that are for you and you alone; and I will shut other doors to protect you. I will show you when and how to go through your open doors. Affirm your trust in Me each day as you look at the day ahead of you. No matter what it looks like, just say, “I trust You, Jesus.” He sovereignly reigns as King of kings and Lord of lords.

(2 Tim.4:6-10; Psa.139:7-10; Isa.22:22; Rev.3:8; Psa.32:8; Psa.4:10; Psa.56:3)