You Say Just the Opposite

Good morning, Papa God! 

All kinds of thoughts and emotions are raging through my mind and body this morning as I settle into my chair and come into Your Presence. The turmoil of emotions this week has left me spiraling, deflated, weakened, and without the ability to “fix” it. But then, in Your Presence, I feel You lifting me, holding me and carrying me. I hear You speaking words of life and encouragement back into my soul. You tell me that I am Yours and that I am not alone. What I say about me and my situation, You say just the opposite about me. Like right now, when I say I don’t feel a thing, You say that You love me. When I say that I am sad, You say that You are my joy and my song. When I say that I am weak, You say that I am strong and brave. When I say that I am undone, and have fallen in the battle of life, You say that I am victorious, to keep fighting the good fight. When I say I am alone, You say that You are always with me. When I say that I can’t find my way, You say to me, “I AM the Way.” When I say, in defeat, that I don’t care anymore, You say to me “cast all cares upon Me because I care for you.” When I say that I have no purpose, You say to me that You have a plan for my life. When I say that I am tired and exhausted from life’s battles, You say to me, “Come, you who are weary and burdened down, I will give you rest in Me.”

No matter what I speak from the depths of my circumstances, You speak the truth back to my heart and soul. It doesn’t eradicate the emotions that I am feeling at this moment, but my soul receives the truth about Who You are and who I am. You are God and I am Your child. As I begin to refocus my thoughts and emotions, and center my focus on You, all else begins to fade. The intensity of my emotions begin to lessen and fade away for a time. Grieving loss is such a painful journey, Papa God. It is not something that I can fix or change! I must somehow just endure it until You heal me from the pain, or lessen the deep, penetrating hurt in my heart. And now, without much to do, the pain seems stronger because I have nothing else on which to focus my time. And so, I sit on the shelf and wait … trusting in You. Where else would I go, Lord? You alone have the words of life and hope. You alone are able to build me up and strengthen me for just such a time as this.

My child,

Great is My faithfulness to you.  Have hope in Me! It is good when you wait on Me and My timing. I am your portion and your shield. Being by yourself and silent in this “sitting on the shelf” time frame is what I have asked of you just now. My love for you never ceases or fails! There is a purpose in the waiting. You know My word. You have studied it deeply and have hidden a lot of its words in your heart. I have said these words to you and I say them again now to your heart that is broken. There is a beauty in brokenness that you are just now beginning to see and understand. It is a mandatory process. It reveals Me at work in you. When you are broken, you are more open to Me and My repair and rebuild process. I needed to break down your strongholds of sin and willfulness, and remove the rubble from your life. It was certainly dragging you down, and slowing your journey’s steps because you are wrestling with the weight of it. It has been removed. Now you can heal through My touch and Presence, and you can now move forward as I show you when and where. Your healing emotionally will take place in My Presence, so stay here with Me for a while.

(Isa.54:10; Rom.8:39-39; Lam.3:21-28; Psa.118:14; Deut.20:4; Matt.28:20; John 14:6; 1 Peter 5:7; Jer.29:11; Matt.11:28; 1 Tim.6:12)