How great is the sum!

Good morning, Papa God! 

What do I say? And what do I do? What can I say? There’s nothing I can say or do that is enough for all You have done for me. I am just here in Your Presence – amazed by Your love, amazed by Your grace, amazed by Your mercy, and continual forgiveness for this child who still sins and still struggles on this road called life. I yearn for home, Papa God. The closer I get to it, the more intense is my yearning. I seem, of late, to be these crawling along this road … not walking, and certainly not running! But, at least, I am moving forward with the ideas that I think You have given me. If You open the doors, then I will go through them. I am watching for Your answer while I wait. Oh, Papa God, this wave of depression that is rolling over me has not let up. I am still under it, trying to claw my way to the surface. My heart cries out to You, Lord – save me from going under. Part the waters, Lord, of my Red Sea and allow me to cross over on dry land. Bring joy from sorrow and replace the pain with Your peace. I am poor and needy, and yet You think upon me. You know the way in which I should go, and so I trust You. Your thoughts and ways are so much higher than mine, and they are perfect towards me. How great is the sum of Your thoughts towards me, more than I could ever even count! Every time I wake up in the morning, I realize that I am still with You. You have sustained me through the night and held me in Your hands, safe and secure. How very blessed am! I recognize, Papa God, that there will always be a gap between what I know to be true in Your Word and how I feel at any given moments. How I feel may be seem real to me, but these feelings do not nullify the truth of Your Word. I “feel” alone, lost, and sometimes forgotten, but I know that You are with me always.

My child,

Your faith in Me is strong. I know this! I see you! I know your heart’s cry. I see your tears, but I also see your great depth of faith in Me and My ability to do all things. I know your feelings are overwhelming you at the moment, but they will diminish in their strength to pull you down when you confess your faith in Me and claim My promises. I delight in you more than you can imagine. You are clothed in Me. You wear My garments of salvation and righteousness. Walk in this knowledge of My great love for you. Nothing can ever separate you from My love, not even you and your feelings, My little one. You are Mine, now and forever. Rise up, Warrior, and stand firm in the midst of this battle. You have My armor on for protection.

(Rom.8:37-39; Zeph.3:17; Isa.61:10; Psa.139:17-18; Eph.6:10-20)