The Land of "In The Meantime"

Good Morning, Papa God! 

Here I sit once again in Your Presence – acknowledging that You are God, totally and completely Sovereign; knowing all things regarding me, my life, as well as this entire universe. I sit here in this land of “in-the-meantime”; I am not where I was, but I am not where I am going either. I look out at my day and ponder my life and its apparent lack of impact and purpose. But, Papa God, my eyes do not see and my mind does not understand all that You know and see and intend to do in and through my life. I have often wondered of late what Your determined purpose is for my life, both in the short-term and the long-term. Since retirement, I thought that the steps I took in the short-term would ultimately lead me somewhere or to something worthwhile in the long-term. But it seems that my short-term steps are not leading me anywhere. Day after day, I am still only doing very sedentary things and isolated within my home – writing, studying, reading, and praying – and seemingly having little-to-no impact for Your kingdom’s growth. You have seen my tears of frustration flow! Papa God, I do not know what to do, and Your ways are beyond my understanding. I wait and watch and listen for You to show me what my next step is. Forgive me, Lord, for fighting against You because of this inactivity of retirement. I guess my plans in retirement were not Your plans for me in retirement ... at least not at the moment. My Lord, You said to me “Come! Follow Me.” I am realizing more and more that is a daily, one day at a time, one step at a time type of following. I hear you say to me: “Daily taking up my cross” … “Daily coming to You” … “Daily trusting You and where You are leading me” … “Daily letting go of knowing the details of Your plan for my life’s journey”.  I want to learn even better than I know now what it means to listen and go with You daily … to go when you say go and to live each day without so much of my planning, but trusting You with my day’s plan. You are my Shepherd, the One who loves me, guides me, and protects me. I lift up my praise to You from a heart that is Yours! You are my existence. Without you, I would be lost and without hope. Teach me, through all this, to be content with where I am and what You have asked me to do. I leave my life in Your very capable hands. Papa God, I come to You today with a heart that wants to please You, a life surrendered to Christ.

My precious little one,

Your life is in my hands where you placed it! Leave it there … in My hands! When your plans seem thwarted, be on the lookout for Me. I am doing something in your life that you never expected. Take the step I show you each day, and trust Me to show you each day what that step will be. Yes, your journey is day by day, trusting Me. Disruptions to your plans will happen. The disruptions or interruptions during your day are there to turn your focus towards Me.  I know there are times like these past few years when you have experienced an emptiness because of a lack of things to do. But this “emptiness experience” has been the optimal training ground for you… the building up of your most holy faith and trust in Me. Remember always – our love relationship is the most important thing in your life. Walk in My love and remember always, My child, that nothing you ever do or don’t do can separate you from My love and My presence. I see and know your heart in all matters of life. My child, I have seen your tears flow today and your heart being broken before Me. I know your heart, little one, and what you are facing during these lonely days. Only I can heal; only I can carry your burden; only I know the path you will travel in the span of your life, and I will set your feet on that path and keep them there. Depend on Me always even when your path “appears” to be obscured from your view. The path has not disappeared, My child. Just your vision of it has been impaired; Mine has not! Trust Me even when you cannot see the path. Walk with Me today, and let Me lead you. You did say to Me that you would follow Me, right? I have the days of your journey in My hands. My child – do not let what you see make you forget what I said. My Word and My promises are forever true. Nothing and no event in the world or in your life will ever change who I AM and what I say. You can always trust Me. I AM God and I am your Father, and I have lovingly planned every inch of your journey. Know this, My child, I see where you are and I alone know why you are there and how I will use you. Very few of my children understand what My Spirit has just revealed to you. It is not what you do or the outward appearances, looking as if you have it all together that matters. I am searching deep within you, into your heart, into the depths of your being. I want to be your first love – always! I will always be with you; I will always lift you up and settle your soul in My peace. Just breathe My Presence into your being, and we will do this journey together.

(1 Peter 5:7; Isa.55:8; Prov.3:5-8; Psa.139:1-5; Luke 9:23; Psalm 23; Heb.12:1-2)